plumbing be damned
EVERY time it feels like we have the worst behind us, something else comes up and bites us in the collective ass. it's enough to make me consider digging an outhouse.
ok, not really, but close.
focus factor
i'm having a very difficult time keeping my head down and getting work done. nothing seems to want to make sense right now - - like what i'm doing, why i'm doing it, who - exactly - it's for...
rock star salamander
i have, however, at work just completed a project on which i am listed as a co-creator. it's a tool for other employees to use to make their jobs happier, easier, more meaningful. it is EXACTLY the kind of work i love doing here, and thus far, it's been extremely well received.
backyardigans bliss
my daughter is starting to catch on that the backyardigans are cool. they are, by far, my favorite kids show right now and it's nice that we can enjoy together. i'm thinking of getting us a few cd's for house-keeping days.
snow
it's actually, finally, pretty-winter here in michigan. the snow flies nearly every day and the yards and rooftops are all a wonderful marshmallowey white. as a bonus, the road folks (at least in wayne county) are doing a great job of keeping one step ahead, so i get to see pretty snow, and still have a relatively decent (and safe) drive.
and for now, that's a wrap (i want to stop while there is more green than red!)
happy tuesday
30 January 2007
29 January 2007
Noise and Sloth
saturday was belated Christmas (and just before that a lot of furniture moving - - no, not around, IN). it looks nice and feels cozy, if just a little bit smaller than i had expected, but that's mostly because we have two larger sized comfy chairs that we'd never had before (quite frankly never could have had before) which provide ample room for loud guests.
they were loud guests i was happy to have... family (extended) that i just absolutely love and always have and likely always will. the baby had a great time visiting with cousins near her own age, and well, i think even my husband enjoyed the visit - - which was a boon to me. though i think that possibly the home made loaded baked potato soup may have had as much to do with his enjoyment of the afternoon as anything else. this said, i think i may make more soup. i like making my husband that kind of content.
the evening and most of yesterday were spent in the land of Spira (a world, i have just discovered, of the Final Fantasy video game). it was nice. it's definitely my speed for a video game, and though i didn't play (which i seldom do - - i have enough trouble controlling my OWN actions, thank you!) i had a lot of fun. apart from the baby, we kind of 'batched' it for food and whatnot through the day - - also cool, keeping the pressure off my having to cook. we interspersed our game play with looking out the window at the softly falling snow, snuggles with the cat, and baby's nap time. it was a really lovely comfy cozy wintery waste of a day.
they were loud guests i was happy to have... family (extended) that i just absolutely love and always have and likely always will. the baby had a great time visiting with cousins near her own age, and well, i think even my husband enjoyed the visit - - which was a boon to me. though i think that possibly the home made loaded baked potato soup may have had as much to do with his enjoyment of the afternoon as anything else. this said, i think i may make more soup. i like making my husband that kind of content.
the evening and most of yesterday were spent in the land of Spira (a world, i have just discovered, of the Final Fantasy video game). it was nice. it's definitely my speed for a video game, and though i didn't play (which i seldom do - - i have enough trouble controlling my OWN actions, thank you!) i had a lot of fun. apart from the baby, we kind of 'batched' it for food and whatnot through the day - - also cool, keeping the pressure off my having to cook. we interspersed our game play with looking out the window at the softly falling snow, snuggles with the cat, and baby's nap time. it was a really lovely comfy cozy wintery waste of a day.
25 January 2007
zombie song
ooh i know how the zombie's feel
limping and aching dragging their legs behind them
check out laminate floor installers
that's probably where you'll find them
mom and i did about 68% of our living room floor last night (my husband and i having completed the first 30% and the remaining 2% being just too much at the end of the day yesterday).
yes, it's beautiful.
i'm still not convinced it's beautiful enough for me to feel like this.
from the middle of the backs of my thighs all the way up to my shoulders
plus ankles and wrists
all a train wreck.
i want muscle relaxers and i want them now
and i have to wait
in other news:
- - my friend Tup translated a ridiculously warped dream i had so beautifully, and exactly spot on, that I almost wept when i read her e-mail (though over tea and in front of a fire would have been such a nicer way - - ah distance, evil manipulator of things that would be better if...)
- - my friend sb's dad passed away after a prolonged bout with the big C
- - according to the website, my local Target store now has the last of the curtain panels i need for my living room in stock... and even if they don't i can now purchase it on line. phew.
- - Christmas returns to my house this weekend, as aunts and cousins and my family are all finally healthy and fit for visiting
- - i got an enormous pat on the back this morning for being an excel wizard
- - i have come to terms with the fact that i am not really eligible for library books, at present, as i have a 2+ year old and not enough time to read
limping and aching dragging their legs behind them
check out laminate floor installers
that's probably where you'll find them
mom and i did about 68% of our living room floor last night (my husband and i having completed the first 30% and the remaining 2% being just too much at the end of the day yesterday).
yes, it's beautiful.
i'm still not convinced it's beautiful enough for me to feel like this.
from the middle of the backs of my thighs all the way up to my shoulders
plus ankles and wrists
all a train wreck.
i want muscle relaxers and i want them now
and i have to wait
in other news:
- - my friend Tup translated a ridiculously warped dream i had so beautifully, and exactly spot on, that I almost wept when i read her e-mail (though over tea and in front of a fire would have been such a nicer way - - ah distance, evil manipulator of things that would be better if...)
- - my friend sb's dad passed away after a prolonged bout with the big C
- - according to the website, my local Target store now has the last of the curtain panels i need for my living room in stock... and even if they don't i can now purchase it on line. phew.
- - Christmas returns to my house this weekend, as aunts and cousins and my family are all finally healthy and fit for visiting
- - i got an enormous pat on the back this morning for being an excel wizard
- - i have come to terms with the fact that i am not really eligible for library books, at present, as i have a 2+ year old and not enough time to read
23 January 2007
Natal
today is not Friday.
it is, however, my birthday (38) and i am celebrating by taking a half day home from the office (which means i leave at 11 - - my worm, i suppose, for being an early bird) and spending some quality time with my daughter and mom... then, later, having dinner with my husband and daughter and mom. really, we don't make much ado of birthdays on the whole, but it's especially nice to do the things one especially wants to do in celebration of a day one really had very little to do with in the first place.
i'm in the office because the people here (myself included, i suppose) like to wish our office-mates a happy day before sending them off to have a pleasant afternoon.
if i were head of an office somewhere, it would be a given fact that employees would be entitled to a paid half day off, on their birthdays... it's only right. of course, as i've noted before, if i had an office somewhere, it likely wouldn't be profitable enough to have employees, nor stay open for more than a year. but i'd be a really good boss.
the weather-folk are also doing me the favor of predicting lots of lovely snow showers with no real accumulation this afternoon... that means i have the joy of watching the snow fall, and the double bonus of not having to drive in muck.
if someone hands me a red balloon, my day will be made.
it is, however, my birthday (38) and i am celebrating by taking a half day home from the office (which means i leave at 11 - - my worm, i suppose, for being an early bird) and spending some quality time with my daughter and mom... then, later, having dinner with my husband and daughter and mom. really, we don't make much ado of birthdays on the whole, but it's especially nice to do the things one especially wants to do in celebration of a day one really had very little to do with in the first place.
i'm in the office because the people here (myself included, i suppose) like to wish our office-mates a happy day before sending them off to have a pleasant afternoon.
if i were head of an office somewhere, it would be a given fact that employees would be entitled to a paid half day off, on their birthdays... it's only right. of course, as i've noted before, if i had an office somewhere, it likely wouldn't be profitable enough to have employees, nor stay open for more than a year. but i'd be a really good boss.
the weather-folk are also doing me the favor of predicting lots of lovely snow showers with no real accumulation this afternoon... that means i have the joy of watching the snow fall, and the double bonus of not having to drive in muck.
if someone hands me a red balloon, my day will be made.
17 January 2007
one step closer...
we can use the toilets, tub, and bathroom sink now. finally.
on Monday my husband called the sewer line cleaner folks and they took care of the problem - just like that.
work has posed a couple of interesting / challenging requests lately. i'm always grateful for something new and fun and mentally taxing enough to keep me from rummaging through empty offices for pens and other office supplies to pilfer.
i'm a week away from 38. it's kind of funny because for the past 6 months or so i've been having to remind myself that i'm still only 37, and that 40 really is farther away than that. which is a really good thing, because the baby will be in school by the time i'm 40, and i'm not ready for that just yet.
it's cold and beautiful outside (not right now, because it's still dark, and will be for a while to come, but when the sun shines on the ice on the trees - - v. pretty)
work and diet coke beckon.
on Monday my husband called the sewer line cleaner folks and they took care of the problem - just like that.
work has posed a couple of interesting / challenging requests lately. i'm always grateful for something new and fun and mentally taxing enough to keep me from rummaging through empty offices for pens and other office supplies to pilfer.
i'm a week away from 38. it's kind of funny because for the past 6 months or so i've been having to remind myself that i'm still only 37, and that 40 really is farther away than that. which is a really good thing, because the baby will be in school by the time i'm 40, and i'm not ready for that just yet.
it's cold and beautiful outside (not right now, because it's still dark, and will be for a while to come, but when the sun shines on the ice on the trees - - v. pretty)
work and diet coke beckon.
11 January 2007
Missing - -
these are people i miss:
from college
Kerri W; Tod M; (and even Todd H); Anna F; Sara Peanut; Jennifer G; Eric P
some of the most amazing minds - - some of the folks who REALLY brought who I am to life.
from high school
Becky S; Brian M; Krysti S; Joe M; Luke P
from the world at large
Jackie G; Kerry G; Vincent W
from the people i've never met but feel i've known all my life
Francey Pants
Special K (Kieran)
it's amazing, really, how folks affect me. amazing to me anyway. each of the names on this list represents a piece of me (nod to Jewel) that i cherish... probably pieces of me that i'm working on finding while i extricate myself from this slump.
meanwhile the fax machine buzzes and chirps, the classical music wafts like the scent of fresh baked cookies, and the dawning day calls me out to face it...
from college
Kerri W; Tod M; (and even Todd H); Anna F; Sara Peanut; Jennifer G; Eric P
some of the most amazing minds - - some of the folks who REALLY brought who I am to life.
from high school
Becky S; Brian M; Krysti S; Joe M; Luke P
from the world at large
Jackie G; Kerry G; Vincent W
from the people i've never met but feel i've known all my life
Francey Pants
Special K (Kieran)
it's amazing, really, how folks affect me. amazing to me anyway. each of the names on this list represents a piece of me (nod to Jewel) that i cherish... probably pieces of me that i'm working on finding while i extricate myself from this slump.
meanwhile the fax machine buzzes and chirps, the classical music wafts like the scent of fresh baked cookies, and the dawning day calls me out to face it...
10 January 2007
And Nothing But...
the truth of the matter is, i've been too grumpy to write anything worth reading.
for the past week or so, i've just been a wretched mess of bad mood and irritability. quite honestly, i don't like me very much, and haven't for a while. the littlest things set me off, and while i immediately regret my grouchiness, the bottom line is that it doesn't undo the fact that i was a turd to begin with.
i've been trying all of my tricks:
- - counting to ten
- - breathing
- - focusing on the beauty
- - looking for the innocence of the moment
and i'm more or less coming up empty. the only time lately that i'm not making people (and myself) miserable, is when i'm alone (then it's just me who suffers).
my daughter helps - immeasurably - by reminding me that she loves me. she does this by telling me "mama, i SOOO love you" which, really, should be all the cure i need - - and yet, here iam, a half-done ham, waiting for some external cloud to lift and the happiness to come flooding in.
i KNOW that the only way for me to shake this is to find the peace within, to be motivated by it, and to never let the zeros get me down.
maybe i need a mini-retreat...
for the past week or so, i've just been a wretched mess of bad mood and irritability. quite honestly, i don't like me very much, and haven't for a while. the littlest things set me off, and while i immediately regret my grouchiness, the bottom line is that it doesn't undo the fact that i was a turd to begin with.
i've been trying all of my tricks:
- - counting to ten
- - breathing
- - focusing on the beauty
- - looking for the innocence of the moment
and i'm more or less coming up empty. the only time lately that i'm not making people (and myself) miserable, is when i'm alone (then it's just me who suffers).
my daughter helps - immeasurably - by reminding me that she loves me. she does this by telling me "mama, i SOOO love you" which, really, should be all the cure i need - - and yet, here iam, a half-done ham, waiting for some external cloud to lift and the happiness to come flooding in.
i KNOW that the only way for me to shake this is to find the peace within, to be motivated by it, and to never let the zeros get me down.
maybe i need a mini-retreat...
04 January 2007
We Now Return to Scheduled Programming...
christmas week
- plague-ridden, loud toys, the christmas deer, and comfy new pajamas
this past week
- plague-ridden, recovering, everything but the bathroom sink and a can opener
this past tuesday
- pot hole -slash- gateway to hell ate my driver's side front tire, and 'did a number' on the rear tire, the baby's recollection of it unnerves me, it shouldn't have been so traumatic as to be something she's still talking about
today
- i'm trying to decide what i can eat that will satisfy my hunger, help me get healthy, and not destroy my daily calorie count - - chicken broth soup comes to mind, but turns my stomach - - sigh - - cheese and almonds sounds so good.
- oh yeah, and work, of course
tonight
- baby shower shopping (and wrapping?) , a dozen eggs and cool whip, and hopefully a couple pairs of socks - - if i have the time to do all this AND make dinner
right now
cheese and almonds
- plague-ridden, loud toys, the christmas deer, and comfy new pajamas
this past week
- plague-ridden, recovering, everything but the bathroom sink and a can opener
this past tuesday
- pot hole -slash- gateway to hell ate my driver's side front tire, and 'did a number' on the rear tire, the baby's recollection of it unnerves me, it shouldn't have been so traumatic as to be something she's still talking about
today
- i'm trying to decide what i can eat that will satisfy my hunger, help me get healthy, and not destroy my daily calorie count - - chicken broth soup comes to mind, but turns my stomach - - sigh - - cheese and almonds sounds so good.
- oh yeah, and work, of course
tonight
- baby shower shopping (and wrapping?) , a dozen eggs and cool whip, and hopefully a couple pairs of socks - - if i have the time to do all this AND make dinner
right now
cheese and almonds
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